What I have come to believe is an overwhelming awe for all the splendor, the complexity, the originality of the created things we call existence. What I simply cannot do is limit my awe and refine my perception into a man-sized box.
The main problem I find with atheistic evolution and dogmatic creation philosophy alike is the insistence that they have the answers.
Only 50 years ago, science was a very different animal. So much progress has been made in half a century that textbooks written for your grandma would be sooo outrageously wrong on so many counts, we could laugh about it. Yet the arrogance of today's scientists leaves no room for the possibility that their new revelations might also be too narrow, too specific, too probing to be reliable tenets of truth. But isn't it science's big slogan, "untrue until proven"? How can we keep changing our standards of truth and maintain that "science" lable? I wouldn't call that science, I'd call it faith. Or at best, educated guessing at the level of someone throwing a dart at a target ten miles away and knowing only its direction on a compass.
Evolution scientists scoff at creationists, and often deservedly. Creation is a philosophy, not a science. We cannot unmistakably parse from the insanely compelling, mind-blowing complexity, order, and beauty of the created universe that it was created, we can merely open our eyes and KNOW this. As I know I have a soul; as I know God hears me. But we are a pig-headed, control-crazed species, we humans. And we must too often rely on our own understanding in order to really trust that we are alright.
Isn't that the heart of the matter?
Creationists fear that evolution, if proven true, will destroy their concept of God, and thereby hurl them into a frightening, insecure place in the universe.So it's easier to creatively (almost Mormonly, but that is for another tirade) define the how's of what limited information God gave us in His Word instead of to lean back and trust that God is bigger than our perceptions. For heaven's sake, if you're going to be so creative, at least allow for other fictional creativity! (like evolution, heehee)
Evolutionists fear that if there is a God who created and oversees His universe, and He is as frustrating and complicated as Creation seems to make Him, He cannot be one in whom they can trust. And so it's easier to deny Him and take comfort in the best guesses of their contemporaries, willfully ignorant of the obsolescence they will suffer as did the Galen's and Plato's before them. Because face it, we. don't. have. all. the. answers.
What I love about science and nature is that it IS. Have you ever taken the time to think about animals, plants, our systems to water, heat, cool, and maintain the earth at a livable level? All I see astounds me. The heavens are a profound miracle. A kangaroo I saw at the zoo, it's intelligent eyes and obvious personality, pacing hop-fully by it's cage door to be let out and do what it was designed to do--leap across an expanse. A squirrel monkey, tiny, bursting with curiosity, and delicately humanish. A pair of swallows mating for life with the sort of loyalty we rarely see in human couples anymore. An aging onion sitting in my dark pantry for a few weeks and then deciding to sprout, stubbornly upword, as if it knows where the sun should be.
I feel no threat at the thought that I cannot, nor ever will grasp the origins of the universe. The God I serve is great. If He could be dissected, explained, and expounded in layman's terms, He would not be the creator, but the created.
One of my sweetest dreams is to ask God to show me how it was in the beginning. To show me the meaning of the oh-so-significant "In the Beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and The Word was God... Through Him all things were made." ...To let me see how the garden looked and what that garden really was. To understand what the earth and its inhabitants with 900-year-lifespans were like before the Flood. To see dinosaurs and meet behemoth. To see the New Heaven and the New Earth, as if the splendid earth He already created were not glorious enough.
